My father experienced the world with his mouth. Sometimes by what he put into it and other times but what flew out of it. Anyone who knew him understood that his sense of humor expressed itself in words and in food. Once he found the internet there was no stopping him, a perfect arena to express himself in words about the things he loved. If you came into my father’s home for a meal you would experience his wit in your ears, your mouth, and deep in your heart. You would see his love for living well and the passion for his incredible partner and wife in Helen. But what my father tried to do was save people. He saved my life. He did it so often I took it for granted, and when I didn’t need saving we went through a lot of difficult times because he was still reaching out and trying to help and I pushed it away. I know that what caused him the greatest heartache was his feeling that everything he tried to do to help his daughter Eden wound up hurting her and he couldn’t figure out why. He had just started to learn to love her the way she needed, to see her as others saw her, without judgment. It’s so much easier to fix someone else than to fix yourself. If you found yourself arguing with my father you would know the shaking finger and the phrase, “you have to understand!” We understand, dad. We understand that the reason you told us the same stories from the past was to inform our present, that they weren’t just the same story they were parables, lessons, experiences, things that had deep meaning that you were exploring for truth. We don’t just understand, we know that you love us, that all you ever wanted was for us to be happy and comfortable, and without worry. We get it. We get it.
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